| The
Coming of Adso
from The Fiery Cross Copyright
© 1999
Diana Gabaldon, The Fiery Cross. All rights reserved.
Gideon
darted out his head like a snake, aiming for the leg of the rider just ahead. Seas!
Jamie wrenched the big bays head around before he could take a bite. Evil-minded
whoreson, he muttered under his breath. Adam Chisholm, unaware of his narrow
escape from Gideons teeth, caught the remark, and looked back over his shoulder,
startled. Jamie smiled and touched his slouch hat apologetically, nudging the
bay up even with Chisholms long-legged mule. A
bit edgy, he said, with a nod toward the horses head. One notched
ear stuck out of the bays head at a right angle, the other lay flat back.
Best I take him on and let him work it off, eh? Chisholm
looked warily at the bays rolling eye and edged as far to the side of his
mules blanketed back as he could without falling off. Oh,
aye, he said. A bit high-heided, is he? Oh,
a bit. Jamie
kicked Gideon ungently in the ribs, urging him past the rest of the slow-moving
travelers at a speed fast enough to keep the brute from biting, kicking, trampling
stray bairns, or otherwise causing trouble. He passed Brianna and Marsali, halfway
up the column, at a slow trot; by the time he passed Claire and Roger, riding
at the head, he was moving too fast to do more than flourish his hat at them in
salute. A
mhic an dhiabhoil, he said, clapping the hat back on and leaning low over
the horses neck. See how long ye last in the rough, eh? He
pulled hard left, off the trail, and down the slope, trampling dry grass and brushing
leafless dogwood out of the way with a gunshot snapping of twigs. What the seven-sided
son-of-a-bitch needed was flat country, where Jamie could gallop the bejesus out
of him and bring him back blowing. Given that there wasnt a flat spot in
twenty miles, hed have to do the next best thing. He
gathered up the reins, shouted Eyaah, ye bastard, go! slammed both
heels into the horses ribs, and they charged up the shrubby hillside as
though they had been fired from a cannon. Gideon
was large, well-nourished, and sound of wind, which was why Jamie had bought him
two days before. He was also a hard- mouthed, bad-tempered reester of a horse,
which was why he hadnt cost much. As
they sailed over a small creek, jumped a fallen log and hared up an almost vertical
hillside littered with scrub-oak and persimmon, Jamie found himself wondering
whether hed got a bargain or committed suicide. That was the last coherent
thought he had before Gideon veered sideways, crushing Jamies leg against
a tree, then gathered his hindquarters and charged down the other side of the
hill into a thicket of buckbrush, sending coveys of quail exploding from under
his huge flat feet. Half
an hour of dodging low branches, lurching through streams and galloping straight
up as many hillsides as Jamie could point them at, and Gideon was, if not precisely
tractable, at least manageable. Jamie was soaked to the thighs, bruised, bleeding
from half a dozen scratches, and breathing nearly as hard as the horse. He was,
however, still in the saddle, and still nominally in charge. He
turned the bays head toward the sinking sun and clicked his tongue. Come
on, then, he said. Lets go home. They
had exerted themselves mightily, but given the rugged shape of the land, had not
covered so much ground as to lose themselves entirely. He turned Gideons
head upward, and within a quarter-hour, had come out onto a small ridge he recognized. They
picked their way along the ridge, searching for a safe way down through the tangles
of chinkapin, poplar and spruce. The party was not far away, he knew, but it could
take some time to cross to them, and he would as soon rejoin them before they
reached the Ridge. Not that Claire or MacKenzie could not guide them--but he admitted
to himself that he wished very much to return to Frasers Ridge at the head
of the party, leading his people home. Christ,
man, yed think ye were Moses, he muttered, shaking his head in mock
dismay at his own pretensions. The
horse was lathered, and when the trees opened out for a space, he halted for a
moments rest--relaxing the reins no more than enough to take the strain
off his wrists, and keeping a sufficient grip as to discourage any notions the
outheidie creature might still be entertaining. They stood among a grove of silver
birch, at the lip of a small rocky outcrop above a forty-foot drop; he thought
the big bay held much too high an opinion of himself to contemplate self-destruction,
but in case he had any thought of flinging his rider off into the laurels below... The
breeze was from the west. Jamie lifted his chin, enjoying the cold touch of it
on his heated skin. The land fell away in undulating waves of brown and green,
kindled here and there with patches of color, lighting the mist in the hollows
like the glow of campfire smoke. He felt a peace come over him at the sight, and
breathed deep, his body relaxing. Gideon relaxed too, all the feistiness draining
out of him. Slowly, Jamie let his hands drop lightly on the horses neck,
and the horse stayed still, ears forward. Ah, he thought. This was a Place, then. He
thought of such Places in a way that had no words, only recognizing one when he
came to it. He might have called it holy, save that the feel of such a place had
nothing to do with church or saint. It was simply a place he belonged to be, and
that was sufficient, though he preferred to be alone when he found one. He let
the reins go slack across the horses neck. Not even a thrawn-heided horse
like this Gideon would give trouble here. Sure
enough, the horse stood quiet, massive withers steaming in the chill. They could
not tarry long, but he was deeply glad of the momentary respite--not from the
battle with Gideon, but from the press of people. He
had learned early on the trick of living separately in a crowd, private in his
mind when his body could not be. But he had learned early, too, the enchantment
of solitude, and the healing of quiet places. Quite
suddenly, he had a vision of his mother, one of the small portraits that his mind
hoarded. He had been hunting rabbits on a hillside, hot and sweaty, his fingers
pricked with gorse and his shirt stuck to him with mud and damp. He had seen a
small grove of trees and gone to them for shade. His mother was sitting in the
greenish shadow, on the ground beside a tiny spring. She sat quite motionless--which
was unlike her--long hands folded in her lap. She had not spoken but smiled at
him, and he had gone to her, not speaking either, but filled with a great sense
of peace and contentment, resting his head against her shoulder, feeling her arm
go about him and knowing he stood at the center of the world. He had been five,
maybe, or six. As
suddenly as it had come, the vision disappeared, like a bright fish vanishing
into dark water. It left behind it the same deep sense of peace, though--as though
someone had briefly embraced him, a soft hand touched his hair. He
swung himself down from the saddle, needing the feel of the pine needles under
his boots, some physical connection with this place. He stood still for a moment,
then turned himself carefully to the right, facing the north. He
no longer recalled who had taught him this--whether it was mother, father, or
Auld John, Ians father. He spoke the words, though, as he turned himself
sunwise, murmuring the brief prayer to each of the four airts in turn, and ended
facing west, into the setting sun. He cupped his empty hands and the light filled
them, spilling from his palms. [Celtic
prayer] With
an instinct older than the prayer, he took the flask from his belt and poured
a few drops of wine on the ground. It was sacramental wine, but not consecrated--not
til now. Scraps
of sound reached him on the evening breeze; laughter and calling, the sound of
horses making their way through brush. The caravan was not far away, only across
a small hollow, coming slowly round the curve of the hillside opposite. He should
go now, to join them on the last push upward to the Ridge. Still
he hesitated for a moment, loath to break the spell of the Place. Some tiny movement
caught the corner of his eye, and he bent down, squinting as he peered into the
deepening shadows beneath a holly bush. It
sat frozen, blending perfectly with its dusky background. He would never have
seen it had his hunters eye not caught its movement. A tiny kitten, its
gray fur puffed out like a ripe milkweed-head, enormous eyes wide open and unblinking,
almost colorless in the gloom beneath the bush. A
Chat, he whispered, putting out a slow finger toward it. Whatever
are ye doing here? A
feral cat, no doubt; born of a wild mother, fled from some settlers cabin
and long free of the trap of domesticity. He brushed the wispy fur of its breast,
and it sank its tiny teeth suddenly into his thumb. Ow!
He jerked away, and examined the drop of blood welling from a small puncture wound.
He glowered at the cat for a moment, but it merely stared back at him, and made
no move to run. He paused, then made up his mind. He shook the blood-drop from
his finger onto the leaves, an offering to join the dram he had spilled, a gift
to the spirits of this Place--who had evidently made up their minds to offer him
a gift, themselves. All
right, then, he said under his breath. He knelt, and stretched out his hand,
palm up. Very slowly, he moved one finger, then the next, and the next and the
next, then again, in the undulant motion of seaweed in the water. The big pale
eyes fixed on the movement, watching as though hypnotized. He could see the tip
of the miniature tail twitch, very slightly, and smiled at the sight. He
made a small noise through his teeth, a whistling hiss, like the distant chittering
of birds. The kitten stared, mesmerized, as the gently swaying fingers moved invisibly
closer. When at last he touched its fur again, it made no move to escape. One
finger edged beneath the fur, another slid under the cold wee pads of one paw,
and it let him scoop it gently into his hand and lift it from the ground. He
held it for a moment against his chest, stroking it with one finger, tracing the
silken jawline, the delicate ears. The tiny cat closed its eyes and began to purr
in ecstasy, rumbling in his palm like distant thunder. Oh,
so yell come away wi me, will you? Receiving no demur from the
cat, he opened his shirt and tucked the tiny thing inside, where it poked and
prodded for a bit before curling up against his skin, purr reduced to a silent
but pleasant vibration. Gideon
seemed pleased by the rest; he set off willingly enough, and within a quarter-hour,
they had caught up with the others. The stallions momentary docility evaporated,
though, under the strain of the final upward climb. Not
that the horse could not handle the steep trail; what he couldnt abide was
following another horse. It didnt matter whether Jamie wished to lead them
home or not--if Gideon had anything to do with the matter, they would be not only
in the lead, but several furlongs ahead. At every widening of the trail, Gideon
shouldered his way rudely ahead, shoving past pack-mules, sheep, and mares; he
even scattered the three pigs trudging slowly behind Grannie Chisholm, who bolted
into the brush in a chorus of panicked oinks as Gideon bore down upon them. Jamie
found himself in perfect sympathy with the horse; eager to be home and working
hard to get there, irritated by anything that threatened to hold him back. At
the moment, the main impediment to progress was Claire, who had--blast the woman--halted
her mare in front of him and slid off in order to gather yet another bit of herbage
from the trailside. As though the entire house was not filled from doorstep to
rooftree with plants already, and her saddlebags a-bulge with more! Gideon,
picking up his riders mood with alacrity, stretched out his neck and nipped
the mares rump. The mare bucked, squealed and shot off up the trail, loose
reins dangling. Gideon made a deep rumbling noise of satisfaction and started
off after her, only to be jerked unceremoniously to a halt. Claire
had whirled round at the noise, eyes wide. She looked up at Jamie, up the trail
after her vanished horse, then back at him. She shrugged apologetically, hands
full of tattered leaves and mangy roots. Sorry,
she said, but he saw the corner of her mouth tuck in and the flush rise in her
skin, the smile glimmering in her eyes like morning light on trout-water. Quite
against his will, he felt the tension in his shoulders ease. He had had it in
mind to rebuke her; in fact, he still did, but the words wouldnt quite come
to his tongue. Get
up then, woman, he said instead, gruffly, with a nod behind him. I
want my supper. She
scrambled up, kilting her skirts out of the way, and Gideon, irascible at this
additional nuisance, whipped round to take a nip of the roundly tempting target
offered by her arse. Jamie was ready for that; he snapped the end of the rein
sharply off the stallions nose, making him jerk back and snort in surprise. Thatll
teach ye, ye bastard, Jamie said, with a small sense of satisfaction. He
pulled his hat over his brow and settled his errant wife securely, fluttering
skirts tucked in beneath her thighs. She rode without shoes or stockings, and
her long calves were white and bare against the dark bay hide. He gathered up
the reins and kicked the horse, a trifle harder than strictly necessary. Gideon
promptly reared, backed, twisted, and tried to scrape them both off under a hanging
poplar bough. The kitten, rudely roused from its nap, sank all its claws into
Jamies midsection and yowled in alarm, though its noise was quite lost in
Jamies much louder screech. He yanked the horses head halfway round,
swearing, and shoved at the hindquarters with his left leg. No
easy conquest, Gideon executed a hop like a corkscrew. There was a small eek!
and a sudden feeling of emptiness behind him, as Claire was slung off into the
brush like a bag of flour. The horse suddenly yielded to the pull on his mouth,
and shot down the path in the wrong direction, hurtling through a screen of brambles
and skidding to a halt that nearly threw him onto his hindquarters in a shower
of mud and dead leaves. Then he straightened out like a snake, shook his head,
and trotted nonchalantly over to exchange nuzzles with Rogers horse, which
was standing at the edge of the spring clearing, watching them with the same bemusement
exhibited by its dismounted rider. All
right there? asked Roger, raising one eyebrow. Certainly,
Jamie replied, trying to gasp for breath while keeping his dignity. And
you? Fine. Good.
He was already swinging down from the saddle as he spoke. He flung the reins toward
MacKenzie, not waiting to see whether he caught them, and ran back toward the
trail, shouting, Claire! Where are ye? Just
here! she called cheerfully. She emerged from the shadow of the poplars,
limping slightly but looking otherwise undamaged. Are you all right?
she asked, cocking one eyebrow at him. Aye,
fine. Im going to shoot that horse. He gathered her in briefly, wanting
to assure himself that she was in fact whole. She was breathing heavily, but felt
reassuringly solid, and kissed him on the nose. Well,
dont shoot him until we get home. I dont want to walk the last mile
or so in my bare feet. Hey!
Let that alone, ye bugger! He
let go of Claire and turned to find Roger snatching a fistful of ragged-looking
plants away from Gideons questing nose. More plants--what was this mania
for gathering? Claire was still panting from the accident, but leaned forward
to see them, looking interested. Whats
that youve got, Roger? For
Bree, he said, holding them up for her inspection. Are they the right
kind? To Jamies jaundiced eye, they looked like the yellowed tops
of carrots gone to seed and left too long in the ground, but Claire fingered the
mangy foliage, and nodded approval. Oh,
yes, she said. Very romantic! Jamie
made a small tactful noise, indicating that they ought perhaps to be making their
way, since Bree and the slower-moving party of Chisholms would be catching them
up soon. Yes,
all right, Claire said, patting his shoulder in what he assumed she meant
to be a soothing gesture. Dont snort; were going. Mmphm,
he said, and bent to put a hand under her foot. Tossing her up into the saddle,
he gave Gideon a Dont try it on, you bastard glare and swung
up behind her. Youll
wait for the others, then, and bring them up? Without waiting for Rogers
nod, he reined around and set Gideon upon the trail again. Temper
momentarily expended, and mollified at being in the lead, Gideon settled down
to the job at hand, climbing steadily through the thickets of chinkapin and poplar,
chestnut and spruce. Even so late in the year, some leaves still clung to the
trees, and small bits of brown and yellow floated down upon them like a gentle
rain, catching in the horses mane, resting in the loose, thick waves of
Claires hair. It had come down in her precipitous descent, and she hadnt
bothered to put it up again. His
own equanimity returned with the sense of progress, and was quite restored by
the fortuitous finding of his hat, hanging from a white oak by the trail, as though
placed there by some kindly hand. Still, he remained uneasy in his mind, and could
not quite grasp tranquility, though the mountain lay at peace all round him, the
air hazed with blue and smelling of wood-damp and evergreens. Then
he realized, with a sudden jolt in the pit of his stomach, that the kitten was
gone. There were itching furrows in the skin of his chest and abdomen, where it
had climbed him in a frantic effort to escape, but it must have popped out the
neck of his shirt and been flung off his shoulder in the mad career down the slope.
He glanced from side to side, searching in the shadows under bushes and trees,
but it was a vain hope. It was nearly dark, and they were on the main trail now,
while he and Gideon had torn through the wood. [..a
Dhia], he murmured, and crossed himself briefly. Go with God. Whats
that? Claire asked, half-turning in the saddle. Nothing,
he said. After all, it was a wild cat, though a small one. Doubtless it would
manage. Gideon
worked the bit, pecking and bobbing. Jamie realized that the tension in his hands
was running through the reins once more, and consciously slackened his grip. He
loosened his grip on Claire, too, and she took a sudden deep breath. His
heart was beating fast. It
was impossible for him ever to come home after an absence without a certain sense
of apprehension. For years after the Rising, he had lived in a cave, approaching
his own house only rarely, after dark and with great caution, never knowing what
he might find there. More than one Highland man had come home to his place to
find it burnt and black, his family gone. Or worse, still there. Well
enough to tell himself not to imagine horrors; the difficulty was that he had
no need of imagination--memory sufficed. The
horse dug with his haunches, pushing hard. No use to tell himself this was a new
place; it was, with its own dangers. If there were no English soldiers in these
mountains, there were still marauders. Those too shiftless to take root and fend
for themselves, but who wandered the backcountry, robbing and plundering. Raiding
Indians. Wild animals. And fire. Always fire. He
hadnt realized that Claire was tensed, too, until she suddenly relaxed against
him, a hand on his leg. Its
all right, she said. I smell chimney-smoke. He
lifted his head to catch the air. She was right; the tang of burning hickory floated
on the breeze. Not the stink of remembered conflagration, but a homely whiff redolent
with the promise of warmth and food. They
rounded the last turn of the trail and saw it, then, the high fieldstone chimney
rising above the trees on the ridge, its fat plume of smoke curling over the rooftree. The
house stood. He
breathed deep in relief, noticing now the other smells of home; the faint rich
scent of manure from the stable, of meat smoked and hanging in the shed, and the
breath of the forest nearby--damp wood and leaf-rot, rock and rushing water, the
touch of it cold and loving on his cheek. They
came out of the chestnut grove and into the large clearing where the house stood,
solid and neat, its windows glazed gold with the last of the sun. It
was a modest frame house, white-washed and shingle-roofed, clean in its lines,
and soundly built, but impressive only by comparison with the crude cabins of
most settlers. His own first cabin still stood, dark and sturdy, a little way
down the hill. Smoke was curling from that chimney, too. Someones
made a fire for Bree and Roger, Claire said, nodding at it. Thats
good, he said. He tightened his arm about her waist, and she made a small,
contented noise in her throat, wriggling her bottom into his lap. Gideon
was happy, too; he stretched out his neck and whinnied to the two horses in the
penfold, who trotted to and fro in the enclosure, calling greetings. Claires
mare was standing by the fence, reins dangling; she curled her lip in what looked
like derision, the wee besom. From somewhere far down the trail behind them came
a deep, joyous bray; Clarence, hearing the racket and delighted to be coming home. The
door flew open, and Mrs. Bug popped out, round and flustered as a tumble-turd.
He smiled at sight of her, and gave Claire an arm to slide down before dismounting
himself. Alls
well, alls well, and hows yourself, sir? Mrs. Bug was reassuring
him before his boots struck ground. She had a pewter cup in one hand, a polishing
cloth in the other, and didnt cease her polishing for an instant, even as
she turned up her face to accept his kiss on her withered round cheek. She
didnt wait for an answer, but turned at once and stood a-tiptoe to kiss
Claire, beaming. Oh,
its grand that youre home, Maam, you and Himself, and Ive
the supper all made, so youll not be worrit a bit with it, Maam, but
come inside, come inside, and be takin off them dusty cloots, and Ill
send old Arch along to the mash-hoose for a bit of the lively, and well...
She had Claire by one hand, towing her helplessly into the house, talking and
talking, the other hand still polishing briskly away, her stubby fingers dextrously
rubbing the cloth inside the cup. Claire gave him a helpless glance over one shoulder,
and he grinned at her as she disappeared inside the house. Mrs. Bug would not
blink an eye, once informed that supper would be for ten more than expected. Gideon
shoved an impatient nose under his arm and bumped his elbow. Oh,
aye, he said, recalled to his chores. Come along then, ye prickly
wee bastard. By
the time he had the big bay and the mare unsaddled, wiped down with a wisp of
dry hay and turned out to their feed, Claire had escaped from Mrs. Bug; coming
back from the paddock, he saw the door of the house swing open and Claire slip
out, looking guiltily over her shoulder as though fearing pursuit. Where
was she bound? She didnt see him; she turned and hurried toward the far
corner of the house, disappearing in a swish of homespun. He followed, curious. Ah.
She had seen to her surgery; now she was going to her garden before it got completely
dark; he caught a glimpse of her against the sky on the upward path behind the
house, the last of the daylight caught like cobwebs in her hair. There would be
little growing now, only the overwintering things like carrots and onions and
garlic, but it made no difference; she always went to see how things were, no
matter how short a time she had been gone. He
understood the urge; he would not feel entirely home himself until he had checked
all the stock and buildings, and made sure of matters up at the still. The
evening breeze brought him an acrid hint from the distant privy, suggesting that
matters there were shortly going to require his attention, speaking of buildings.
Then he bethought him of the new tenants coming, and relaxed; digging a new privy
would be just the thing for Chisholms eldest two boys. He
and Ian had dug this one, when they first came to the Ridge. God, he missed the
lad. A
Micheal..., he murmured. Blessed Michael, protect him. He liked MacKenzie
well enough, but had it been his choice, he would not have exchanged Ian for the
man. It had been Ians choice, though, not his, and no more to be said about
it. Pushing
away the ache of Ians loss, he stepped behind a tree, loosened his breeks
and relieved himself. If she saw him, Claire would doubtless make what she considered
witty remarks about dogs and wolves marking their home-ground as they returned
to it. Nothing of the sort, he replied to her mentally, why walk up the hill,
only to make matters worse in the privy? Still, if you came down to it, it was
his place, and if he chose to piss on it...he tidied his clothes, feeling more
settled. He
raised his head and saw her coming down the path from the garden, her apron bulging
with carrots and turnips. A gust of wind sent the last of the leaves from the
chestnut grove swirling round her in a yellow dance, sparked with light. Moved
by sudden impulse, he stepped deeper into the trees and began to look about. Normally,
he paid attention only to such vegetation as was immediately comestible by horse
or man, sufficiently straight-grained to serve for planks and timbers, or so covered
with thorns as to pose difficulty in passage. Once he began looking with an eye
to aesthetics, though, he found himself surprised at the variety to hand. Stalks
of half-ripe barley, the seeds laid in rows like a womans plait. A dry,
fragile weed that looked like the lace-edging on a petticoat. A stem of blue spruce,
unearthly green and cool among the dry bits, leaving its fragrant sap on his hand
as he tore it from the tree. A branch of glossy oak-leaves, that reminded him
of her hair, in shades of gold and brown and gray. And a bit of scarlet creeper,
snatched for color. Just
in time; she was coming round the corner of the house. Lost in thought, she passed
within a foot or two of him, not seeing him. Sorcha,
he called softly, and she turned, eyes narrowed against the rays of the sinking
sun, then wide and gold with surprise at the sight of him. Welcome
home, he said, and held out the small bouquet of leaves and twigs. Oh,
she said. She looked at the bits of leaf and stick again, and then at him, and
the corners of her mouth trembled, as though she might laugh or cry, but wasnt
sure which. She reached then, and took the plants from him, her fingers small
and cold as they brushed his hand. Oh,
Jamie--theyre wonderful. She came up on her toes and kissed him, warm
and salty, and he wanted more, but she was hurrying away into the house, the silly
wee things clasped to her breast as though they were gold. He
felt pleasantly foolish, and foolishly pleased with himself. The taste of her
was still on his mouth. Sorcha,
he whispered, and realized that he had called her so a moment before. Now that
was odd; no wonder she had been surprised. It was her name in the Gaelic, but
he never called her by it. He liked the strangeness of her, the Englishness. She
was his Sassenach. And
yet in the moment when she passed him, she was Sorcha. Not only Claire,
it meant--but light. He
breathed deep, contented. He
was suddenly ravenous, both for food and for her, but he made no move to hasten
inside. Some kinds of hunger were sweet in themselves, the anticipation of satisfaction
as keen a pleasure as the slaking. Hoofsteps
and voices; the others were coming up the trail into the clearing. He had a sudden
urge to keep his peaceful solitude a moment longer, but too late--in seconds,
he was surrounded by confusion, the shrill cries of excited children and calls
of distracted mothers, the welcoming of the newcomers, the bustle and rush of
unloading, turning out the horses and mules, fetching feed and water...and yet
in the midst of this Babel, he moved as though he were still alone, peaceful and
quiet in the setting sun. He had come home. [next
morning] Drugged
with fatigue, languid with love, and lulled by the comforts of a soft, clean bed
and Jamies warm body, I slept like the dead. Somewhere
toward dawn, I began to dream--pleasant dreams of touch and color, without form.
Small hands touched my hair, patted my face; I turned on my side, half-conscious,
dreaming of nursing a child in my sleep. Tiny soft fingers kneaded my breast,
and my hand came up to cup the childs head. It bit me. I
shrieked, shot bolt upright in bed, and saw a gray form race across the quilt
and disappear over the end of the bed. I shrieked again, louder. Jamie
shot sideways out of bed, rolled on the floor and came up standing, shoulders
braced and fists half-clenched. What?
he demanded, glaring wildly round in search of marauders. Who? What? A
rat! I said, pointing a trembling finger at the spot where the gray shape
had vanished into the crevice between bed-foot and wall. Oh.
His shoulders relaxed. He scrubbed his hands over his face and through his hair,
blinking. A rat, aye? A
rat in our bed, I said, not disposed to view the event with any degree of
calm. It bit me! I peered closely at my injured breast. No blood;
only a couple of tiny puncture-marks that stung slightly. I did hope it wasnt
rabid. Dinna
fash. Ill deal with it. Squaring his shoulders once more, Jamie picked
up the poker from the hearth and advanced purposefully on the bed-foot. The footboard
was solid; there was a space of only a few inches between it and the wall. The
rat must be trapped, unless it had managed to escape in the scant seconds between
my scream and Jamies eruption from the quilts. I
got up onto my knees, ready to leap off if he scared it back up onto the bed.
Scowling ferociously, he raised the poker, reached out with his free hand, and
flipped the hanging coverlid out of the way. He
whipped the poker down with great force--and jerked it aside at the last moment,
smashing into the wall. What?
I said. What?
he echoed, in a disbelieving tone. He bent closer, squinting in the dim light,
then started to laugh. He dropped the poker, squatted on the floor and reached
slowly into the space between the bed-foot and wall, making a small chirping noise
through his teeth. It sounded like birds feeding in a distant bush. Are
you talking to the rat? I began to crawl toward the foot of the bed, but
he motioned me back, shaking his head, while still making the chirping sound. I
waited, agog, and within a minute, he made a grab, evidently catching whatever
it was, for he gave a small exclamation of satisfaction. He stood up, smiling,
a gray, furry shape clutched by the nape, dangling like a tiny purse from his
fingers. Here's
your wee ratten, Sassenach, he said, and gently deposited a ball of gray
fur on the coverlet. Huge eyes of a pale celadon green stared up at me, unblinking. Well,
goodness, I said. Wherever did you come from? I extended a finger,
very slowly. The kitten didn't move. I touched the edge of a tiny, silken jaw,
and the big green eyes disappeared, going to slits as it rubbed against my finger.
A surprisingly deep purr rumbled through its miniature frame. That,
Jamie said, with immense satisfaction, is the present I meant to give ye,
Sassenach. He'll keep the vermin from your surgery. Well,
possibly very small vermin, I said, examining my new present dubiously.
I think a large cockroach could carry him--is it a him?--off to its lair,
let alone a mouse. Hell
grow, Jamie assured me. Look at his feet. He--yes,
it was a he--had rolled onto his back and was doing an imitation of a dead bug,
paws in the air. Each paw was roughly the size of a broad copper penny, small
enough by themselves, but enormous by contrast with the tiny body. I touched the
minuscule pads, an immaculate pink in their thicket of soft gray fur, and the
kitten writhed in ecstasy. A
discreet knock came at the door, and I snatched the sheet up over my bosom as
the door opened and Mr. Wemysss head poked in, his hair sticking up like
a pile of wheat-straw. Er...I
hope all is well, sir? he asked, blinking short-sightedly at Jamie, standing
nude by the bed. My lass woke me, sayin as she thought there was a
skelloch, like, and then we heard a bit of a bang, like-- His eyes, hastily
averted from me, went to the scar of raw wood in the white-washed wall, left by
Jamies poker. Aye,
its fine, Joseph, Jamie assured him. Only a wee kittlen. Oh,
aye? Mr. Wemyss squinted toward the bed, his thin face breaking into a smile
as he made out the blot of gray fur. A cheetie, is it? Well, and hell
be a fine help i the kitchen, Ive nae doubt. Aye.
Speakin of kitchens, Joseph--dye think your lassie might bring up
a dish of cream for the baudron here? Mr.
Wemyss nodded and disappeared, with a final avuncular smile at the kitten. Jamie
stretched, yawned, and scrubbed both hands vigorously through his hair, which
was behaving with even more reckless abandon than usual. I eyed him, with a certain
amount of aesthetic appreciation; combined with several days scruffy beard,
the effect was rather prehistoric. You
look like a wooly mammoth, I said. Oh?
And what is a mammoth, besides big? A
sort of prehistoric elephant--you know, the animals with the long trunks? He
squinted down the length of his body, then looked at me quizzically. Well,
I thank ye for the compliment, Sassenach, he said. Mammoth, eh?
He thrust his arms upward and stretched again, casually arching his back, which--quite
inadvertently, I didnt think--caused his pelvis to tilt, thus enhancing
any incidental resemblances that one might note between the half-engorged morning
anatomy of a man, and the facial adornments of a pachyderm. I
laughed. Thats
not precisely what I meant, I said. Stop waggling; Lizzies coming
in any minute. Youd better put your shirt on or get back in bed. The
sound of footsteps on the landing sent him diving under the quilts, and sent the
little cat scampering up the sheet in fright. In the event, it was Mr. Wemyss
himself who had brought the dish of cream, sparing his virgin daughter a possible
sight of Himself in the altogether. The
weather being fine, we had left the shutters open the night before. The sky outside
was the color of fresh oysters, moist and pearly gray. Mr. Wemyss glanced at it,
blinked and nodded at Jamies thanks, and toddled back to his bed, thankful
for a last half-hours sleep before the dawn. I
disentangled the kitten, who had taken refuge in my hair, and set him down by
the bowl of cream. I didnt suppose he could ever have seen a bowl of cream
in his life, but the smell was enough--in moments, he was whisker-deep, lapping
for all he was worth. Hes
a fine thrum to him, Jamie remarked approvingly. I can hear him from
here. Hes
lovely; wherever did you get him? I nestled into the curve of Jamies
body, enjoying his warmth; the fire had burnt far down during the night, and the
air in the room was chilly, sour with ash. Found
him in the wood. Jamie yawned widely, and relaxed, propping his head on
my shoulder to watch the tiny cat, who had abandoned himself to an ecstasy of
gluttony. I thought Id lost him when Gideon bolted--I suppose hed
crept into one of the saddle-bags, and came up wi the other things. We
lapsed into a peaceful stupor, drowsily cuddled in the warm nest of our bed, as
the sky lightened, moment by moment, and the air came alive with the voices of
waking birds. The house was waking, too--a babys wail came from below, followed
by the stir and shuffle of rising, the murmur of voices. We should rise, too--there
was so much to be done--and yet neither of us moved, each reluctant to surrender
the sense of quiet sanctuary. Jamie
sighed, his breath warm on my bare shoulder. A
week, I think, he said quietly. Before
you must go? Aye.
I can take that long to settle things here, and gather the men from the Ridge.
A week then, to pass through the country between the Treaty Line and Drunkards
Creek and call the muster--another to Cross Creek--and well meet Tryon in
Hillsborough by mid-December. I
lay quiet for a moment, my hand wrapped round Jamies, his loose fist curled
against my breast. Ill
go with you. He
kissed the back of my neck. Dye
wish it? he said. I dinna think there will be need. Neither you nor
Bree know of any fighting will be done here now. That
only means that if anything will happen, it wont be a huge battle,
I said. This--the Colonies--its a big place, Jamie. And two hundred
years of things happening--we wouldnt know about the smaller conflicts,
especially ones that happened in a different place. Now in Boston-- I sighed,
squeezing his hand. I
wouldnt know a great deal about events in Boston myself, but Bree would;
growing up there, she had been exposed in school to a good bit of local and state
history. I had heard her telling Roger things about the Boston Massacre--a small
confrontation between citizens and British troops that had taken place in [January]. Aye,
I suppose thats true, he said. Still, it doesna seem as though
it will come to anything. I think Tryon only means to frighten the Regulators
into good behavior. This
was in fact likely. However, I was quite aware of the old adage--Man proposes
and God disposes--and whether it was God or William Tryon in charge, Heaven
only knew what might happen in the event. Do
you think so? I asked. Or only hope so? He
sighed, and stretched his legs, his arm tightening about my waist. Both,
he admitted. Mostly I hope. And I pray. But I do think so, too. The
kitten had completely emptied the dish of cream. He sat down with an audible thump
on his tiny backside, rubbed the last of the delicious white stuff from his whiskers,
then ambled slowly toward the bed, sides bulging visibly. He sprang up onto the
coverlet, burrowed close to me, and fell promptly asleep. He
purred in his sleep; I could feel the small vibration of it through the quilt. What
do you think I should call him? I mused aloud, touching the tip of the soft,
wispy tail. Spot? Puff? Cloudy? Foolish
names, Jamie said, with a lazy tolerance. Is that what ye were wont
to call your pussie-baudrons in Boston, then? Or England? No.
Ive never had a cat before, I admitted. Frank was allergic to
them--they made him sneeze. And whats a good Scottish cat name, then--Diarmuid?
MacGillivray? He
snorted, then laughed. Adso,
he said, positively. Call him Adso. What
sort of name is that? I demanded, twisting to look back at him in amazement.
Ive heard more peculiar Scottish names than I could imagine in a month
of Sundays, but thats a new one, I must say! He
rested his chin comfortably on my shoulder, watching the kitten sleep. My
mother had a wee cat named Adso, he said, surprisingly. A gray cheetie,
verra much like this one. Did
she? I laid a hand on his leg. He rarely spoke of his mother, who had died
when he was eight. Aye,
she did. A rare mouser, and that fond of my mother; he didna have much use for
us bairns. He smiled in memory. Possibly because Jenny dressed him
in smocks and fed him rusks, and I dropped him into the mill-pond, to see could
he swim. He could, by the way, he informed me, but he didna like to. I
cant say I blame him, I said, amused. Why was he called Adso,
though? Is it a saints name? I was used to the peculiar names of Celtic
saints, from Aodh--pronounced OOH--to Dervorgilla, but hadnt
heard of Saint Adso before. Probably the patron saint of mice. Not
a saint, he corrected. A monk. My mother was verra learned--she was
educated at Leoch, ye ken, along with Colum and Dougal, and could read Greek and
Latin, and a bit of the Hebrew as well as French and German. She didna have so
much opportunity for reading at Lallybroch, of course, but my father would take
pains to have books fetched for her, from Edinburgh and Paris. He
reached across my body to touch a silky, translucent ear, and the kitten twitched
its whiskers, screwing up its face as though about to sneeze, but didnt
open its eyes. The purr continued unabated. Anyroad,
one of the books she liked was written by a German monk, from the city of Melk,
and so she thought it a verra suitable name for the kit. Suitable...? Aye,
he said, nodding toward the empty dish, without the slightest twitch of lip or
eyelid. Adso of Milk. A
slit of green showed as one eye opened, as though in response to the name. Then
it closed again, and the purring resumed. Well,
if he doesnt mind, I suppose I dont, I said, resigned. Adso
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